In the Game

Our first purchase for the nursery:

I found it in a boutique in Dallas a couple months ago. It made me cry the first time I saw it. I had forgotten about it until I went back to that same boutique yesterday. It made me cry again. So I bought it :)

Each week seems to go by faster and faster. It's hard to imagine that we're down to 3 1/2 months of this pregnancy. Baby Bill and I are still doing great. I passed my glucose tolerance test and we measured my fundal height for the first time and I was right on track. Baby Bill's movements are very distinct now - when he moves I know it! We found out I have an anterior placenta, which is no concern for me or baby Bill, but some women experience feeling less of their babys' movements than women with posterior placentas. I don't have anything to compare to but I feel him pretty often now. He has his down days where he's quieter than normal (yes, it freaks me out), and he has days where he's very active. I was reading in bed a few nights ago with my Bible balanced on my belly and he kicked or moved so strongly it made my Bible jerk! It was crazy. But I love it. I love feeling him. My new favorite past time is to sit on the couch with my hands on my belly and just wait for him. 

I've also grown a lot myself these past few weeks. The maternity clothes that were slightly too big now fit me just right. Yesterday, for the first time, a stranger acknowledged I was pregnant without either of us telling her. It was great. I love talking about baby Bill. 

So before we know it the holidays will be here and once that's over with it'll be close to our time. It's still so hard to believe. I don't know if I'll ever stop saying that. I did book our babymoon trip! We're going to Savannah, GA over Thanksgiving. We're staying at a B&B in the historical district. I am really looking forward to it. Bill and I haven't taken a vacation together since 2010. What can I say, infertility is expensive!

So hopefully my next post will feature a few more additions for the nursery. I am browsing crib bedding sets now. I figured that's a good place to start. It's all quite overwhelming. But in the best way. I was at my desk at work the other day looking at crib sets online, baby Bill tapping away at me, my coworkers talking to me about decorating, and once again I had to fight back the tears. There I was, dreaming up baby Bill's nursery for the first time. I never let myself think about those kinds of things while we were trying and going through all of those treatments. I never let myself fully surrender to the dream. It's like being the kid benched for every game, until finally, one day, coach puts you in. Everyone cheers you on because they've wanted to see you play for so long. You worry about disappointing sometimes or that coach will laugh and say, just kidding! or that this is the one and only game you will ever play. So you make it count. You make every living, breathing second count so that for the rest of your life, you will say, man, I played a great game.